Always for you

Sometimes I wonder if you can see it. Sometimes I think you do but choose not to.

From the people I'm exceptionally closed with to the people I even study with. I always placed you in my head.

That I always try to make it right by asking for permission, instead of just informing.

Sometimes I wonder if you doubt that P was yours.

Sometimes I harbor between telling and not telling.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm secondary

Sometimes I wish you can read my thoughts.

I hate Feb

Feb has been a month of either making people going broke or bankrupt.

I was broke. So now, I'm bankrupt.

I haven't paid my bills for 2 months now. After so longggg, I suddenly realized I'm in a deep shit coz I haven't had enough savings aside to settle it by myself. Well I had savings until a turn of event. To date: it's beyond $200.

My three best buddies birthday are a day after another. We were thinking of going out, only 3 of us or with some others. But then, I have another problem.

I checked my bank bal 1: $7 and then, I checked another bank bal, even better. $1.

I can't even topped my ezlink card so I have been saving all my best for transport by walking.

And I have already been borrowing my sister's money. Looks like I have to do it again.

I'm torn between trying to get another job and thinking of how to juggle my school work. It's just tough this time.



I wish March will be kinder to my pockets.

Aching

This got to be the worse.

I can't climb up the stairs nor going down.
My right leg is numb and I can't bend it.
My left arm is aching.
My joints hurts like mad.
My spine is aching

I'm limping around and mom keep asking me not to go to school.


And I'm missing my baby who refuse to talk to me.

Tell me how am I going to study for the tests?
sheesh.

Pink ribbons and flowers

Sometimes, like now while I'm sitting down in the train, I wonder....

Did I do the right decision?

How pretty is the flower and how it would bloom?


I shut my eyes, swallow a big lump of saliva and blast off my songs.


FortheloveofP

Rabbit without Ears 2

I love Rabbit without Ears- both part 1 and part 2!
It's really cute.

If part 1 was about falling in love, part 2 is about trust and commitment.

And there were certainly a few parts that all of us can really relate to.

I, especially love the part when they both confessed that they both slept with another, and the guy refuses to forgive her. Well, they did the same stuff - like the girl said. The guy, however, thought that was absurb and disgusting. Interesting.



"When you're really in love, can you forgive bad mistakes?"


Can you?

<3

p.s: Mr big, you owe me a date for both sleeping while I'm talking and stood up for lunch. I wanna add, for not calling me tonight. Just to add to the pettiness.

Jittery

Ok I'm getting restless to the fact that I'm not earning. I've always kinda work during the semester to tide in miscellaneous stuff like paying my bills, buying new stuff or just have the luxury to spend MY OWN money.

And I know I'm going to be relying on Mr Big a lot this semester since I can't find any job. But really, it's not fair for him and ultimately, an additional burden he has to carry until I have a job. This can't go on..

I'm so broke I cant even buy my best buds birthday gift on my own and have a real good time celebrating. It's just so frustrating for me.

Valentine's

I celebrated my Valentine's early. Well not that we really say we did but I will assume I had celebrated it already.

A movie marathon at my home with best bud and Mr big was awesome except we don't have popcorns.

The lil surprise in the middle of the night.

The soft snoring at the back of my ears.

The protective hand guarding me like I would fall off the bed while sleeping.

The small kicking he made.

The morning kiss.

MacD breakfast!

Another lil surprise in the evening.

Baby shower. Thank god no similar gifts!

And so, I had a good weekend. I hope it stays this way... Make me feel happy and all. I hope you too. ;)

I {} travelling

Of all things, I've just realised I pick a fight with a man as old as my dad without giving a concern of my surrounding or his age etc.

Next, my parents are so proud of me for doing it.


How hilarious can that be? Bizarre no?


Cherating trip was awesome, full of dramas, games and laughter. Of course, huge heart attacks as well, literally.
I had fun in the swimming pool playing water polo with my sister and this Malaysian family. Cute. Their daughter keep "guarding" me by pulling my hand or pushing me into the water. Can you believe it? I was attacked by a 10 year old scrawny girl! Terrible fate I had!
My mom managed to get my sister and I a ride on the ATV, twice with one time payment. Hah. Mom is the best person in getting discountttttsssss... and then she uses me to get more keropok from this pasar. We had like 3 free bags of keropok for that. Great.

Ok. So I need a breather. First Phuket and then Cherating. That's it. Should have a longer break. Time to focus back on books. Sob Sob Sob...




Mr Big, Lankayan Island. I think it's time to see Sabah/Sarawak.
Check it out. :)