Fasting month

I happened to stumble on a friend's opinion about fasting on Fb. It wasn't really pleasant and considering he is a Muslim himself, the opinion was disappointing. He went about saying how he doesn't see the point of fasting- giving back this social responsibility to empathize with those in need etc when one should be doing all year round. To me, he seems to miss a point.

People who dont fast will always ask someone who do, "How did you do it?" and many others alway forget that Muslims are not the only ones in the world who practices fasting. The Christians, Hindus and many other religions do it only perhaps with different techniques or rules involved.

To me, fasting month has always been a month I look forward for. It's time to cleanse yourself and try to redeem yourself for whatever mistakes you've made. Its a holy time. While it's true you should be doing good stuff all year round, I believe you can never truly empathize with another person's situation if you have never tasted what they do. So many poor people out there who doesn't have enough food nor sufficient water to survive and I feel the fasting month allow me to reconnect my senses and be humbled and feel blessed of my current life. It made me feel more for them than just wanting to give money to the poor.

A test of patience and faith. Rekindle your belief and love. A time for forgiveness and bridging.

Some people just don't get it. Until you do it yourself, you will then finally understand why the fasting month- one that looks torturous, is the only month where all Muslims around the world unite and be eager of.

With or Without You

Can you please sweep me off my feet with this song..?

I was revisiting some stuff we had. I smiled. Quite a lot actually.
I remembered how I cried.
I remembered how you called me babe.
I gazed away, thinking of how you used to console me.
of how I shared my deepest secrets and worse fears.
And I still like how you looked at me, how you touched my hand, how you made me laugh..

I'm hell glad I got you. Through all the bullshits and all the happiness, I could never ask for anyone better.


Sweet 6th L-anny-verysary.

A glimmer of hope

And so today goes my 2nd interview.

When I arrived at the place, to be exact AIA office, I don't feel good. My instict said they are offering me something that I will refuse, rather than the one I believe what they had offered me over the email.

So when I arrived and met the lady, she asked me to take a personality test. Afterwards, my instinct was right afterall. But the lady was very kind and was open to what I'm interested in. Well, to be exact she was shocked because not many wanted to pursue that field- yet. But I insisted on my passion and how it will worked for the company as well. So we continue talking and all, and hey! she said (according to her) that she will hook me up a 2nd interview, directly with the boss to discuss my choice of career. While we were talking, the boss did dropped by in the room and we were introduced. She gave a quick summmary of what I liked and he was surprised as well. He gave me an invitation to join them for a product launch this Saturday, which I think I will dropped by only if the HR lady remembered to email me the address!

But seriously, as I was talking to the lady, I feel good- optimistic even. For a moment, I saw a glimmer of hope that I can be nearer to what I think I like. So I'm really crossing fingers that I could get this particular niche job field.

Till then.

Btw, I will not be a financial consultant anytime sooner. Not my 1st few choices.

Satisfied

I surprise myself sometimes.

I never knew or tested how much I can care for someone. I realize my caring and adoration comes with respect and love. And this is the part I'm surprised. I never knew I could open my heart and feel love- to love and be loved, as deeply to a point that sometimes, it hurts. Because I care so much, I became afraid of losing it. I began to worry. And I never knew I would ever be in this position. To love someone with all your heart that it really hurts and scare you. Occasionally, it even makes me paranoid!

But I'm glad I did. Because embracing it all in makes me look at the world with a differing viewpoint. One that has more emotions than logic.

Hopeless

It's been 2 months. Fine... How bout a whole full one month?

I'm losing hope.

I don't know what else to do. Haiz.