Promises

Promises promises promises.

People make promises without real intention of keeping to it. They make all sort of promises to make the other person happy.

Only to forget, ignoring it months later when you think such promises are dumb, silly and stupid.

So one lesson: DO FUCKING NOT MAKE PROMISES TO ME UNLESSS you can work them.

I love you too

It's not that I don't. But I'm afraid.
It's not that I don't wish to say it out loud. But I'm afraid.

I'm afraid of losing you but I'm afraid of myself. A monster in the making. I don't know how to pick myself up. I don't know how not to think bout it.

I don't know how to move. Maybe we all need time.

Sometimes I can't help but think, why are we so destructive to the person we care for the most.....

I miss me being oblivious and trusting.

Wandering mind

Sometimes, I hate knowing anything.
It makes you connect dots that may never exist or exist coincidentally. But whatever it is, it makes me have a wandering mind. A paranoid mind.

A tired mind and a paranoid mind is a very very bad combo.

Maybe I just need a massage and a rest day.