Thursday, June 28, 2012

Underneath it all

At the end of the day, I know one thing... I like kicking it back with Mr Big, seeing how ridiculous he can be. Seeing him eat and laugh.

All that was lacking.... A picnic box.

We should go picnic soon.


Sunday, June 17, 2012

Standing by your partner

It's not always because he/she cheated on you and due to public humiliation, you stand rooted and stood by your partner.

Standing by your partner includes every small decision and of course, the large ones as well.

But you don't realize how hard it is to stand solid on the ground until you're tested.

Its a true test of loyalty, patience and a lot of believing. Believing in someone is not easy. Believing that their decision will not harm the relationship you have is not easy. To stand grounded although your own beliefs beginning to shiver. To hold on to that thin thread of hope that things can move on and will be better.

I have been grounded for so long and all I wish for is that one day, I can kick back and relax. Sip a drink, reading a book and watch the world pass by. To be financially free.

And if one thing partners need to remember is that, every smart or stupid decision one makes... It will always, always, always affect the other partner too.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Loving

Really, what does it mean to love someone?

Do you have to be involved physically?
Does it require you to personally know the person?
Do you need to spent a lot of time and effort?

I love Precious. One that I never met, I never knew, I never touch. But I love it with all my heart and soul; ways which I never knew

could happen. How can I love some thing that I never knew? But I did. And truly, that was my deepest love.

Imperfections in all of us. How can we love someone with all our heart, knowing all their imperfections? Are we blinded by love or are we merely tolerating? What really do we look for in love? What are the conditions to love?

And then.. There I go seeing lesbian partners holding hands. I see young couple with a throng of children behind them. I see couples who are millions old and still look in each other eyes as if they never had aged.

Really, love- is it as hard as it seems?