Do You Know?

DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE?

To keep calling and trying to get hold of one for hours?
To stay awake till wee morning, worried?
Calling all close friends and siblings who could probably be with you?
To not know what exactly happened?

To only received a call but by accident?

To hear loud background music with your voice mixed with another tender voice? or a crying one?

Am I being too harsh? Unreasonable?

Childish revenge?

Somethings never change. Somethings never have to happen. Somethings are never needed to be tolerated.

How sweet was it to go and teach with red bloodshot eyes?
To be so angry and not knowing how to let it all out but surprising yourself by bursting into loud sobbing tears?

"I'm Sorry"

That was not enough.
I want an explanation which up to now I do not know.

Moron,
I never once had to let out all the vulgarities I've learned in my entire life thrown to you.
Congratulations.
And if I hated that fucked up Chinese girl you're with, you only have yourself to blame.

Somethings never should have happened.