After all the tears I've shed.. I lie awake in my bed, thinking.
What do I want now?
Do I want to relieve it all again?
Do I want us to start afresh?
I have to stay firm this time. I cannot go on a meltdown every few months. I cannot go crazy after every fight. What we had was beautiful. What we will have, God knows.
I stand grounded that I don't want a marriage. What's the point then getting back together? What's the point then being together at all? I stand grounded I will or maybe never be ready for marriage.
I may regret this one day. But, why should I lie anymore? I'm tired of lying, to myself.
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