Opportunities

I have been pretty much bumming and it's definitely not my expertise.

I'm so restless, agitated more like it, because I have nothing to look forward for, nothing to be excited for, nothing to be keen on. Nothing. And ya, I am supposedly on job hunting moments and boy, don't I hate job hunting! It's the most tedious part of all! Finding someone who would believe in you beyond all those certificates or the lack relevance you have. It doesn't matter if you have the brains but if in the paper, you can't prove it, you might as well scoot off.

So, I have been thinking on what I really like to do. My ambitions, my drive, my life in it. Guess what, I don't know a shit of what I want to do with my life. So they say let's begin with what you like- well, I like great music, make up, mathematics, puzzles, reading and most of all, I like to feel useful. I like arts, connecting and engaging with people around me. I like a lot of things, I can't pinpoint which want I want to pursue. Ok.. Fine, how bout starting with something I don't like? Well, I don't fancy being an insurance agent. Not because of the stigma, but rather I just don't feel right to it. There's just something bout it that I just won't gel. Even during schooling days, I realise I do not fancy the job of financial consultant. I won't say I hate it, I just don't fancy it. Preferrence.

And then, comes about this problem with experience. Someone should have told me when I was 16, how important your working life is. No matter how crappy that back end job, it's superficial you know why? Cause everyone wants to know that you work for this gigantic company although really, what you've been assigned to was crap. So now, my main background goes back to retail. See, I have no qualms about retail, in fact I love it! But when you have a major in Economics and Finance from some private institutions, the thing is no one thinks that whatever you learn in retail is useful and if any, most would think redundant.

Also, as I was reflecting, a job search is like 2 apples -red and green, assuming you have never eaten before an apple. You are not sure if red is better than green or if red is sweeter than green. But you've heard people telling you bout these apples. And you are not sure if you really like it. It's like you wanna try red apple but what if green apple is better, healthier? And you are not really sure if you are going to like red apple anyway. Then, comes the question of how are you going to find these apples? Do you grow yourself, find a direct supplier or find someone who knows where to get these apples? Since you have never tried any of these apples, how are you going to decide? What decisions to base on?

Headache. I'm definitely better off in school, academically; ignorant of this other world: the working world. But oh well, I'm supposed to be an adult now. So I should seek some income.

Being an adult is tough.

Till the right opportunity come calling my handphone, updates soon.



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